秋天的文字慾

You came back to New Zealand.I'm so delighted to see you.I can talk to you in Chinese about my worries.I haven't spoken Chinese for over 2 hours for ages.I'm so happy you are here.

You asked me am I going to Japan for Working Holiday as other friends ever asked ?I just smiled and denied.I told you that I don't want to go to Japan unless I'm sure I can make a living by myself.I don't want to depend on him.If all I can do in Japan just depends on a man,I'm afraid of losing myself.

You said I am outwardly soft but inwardly hard.I confess that in my mind.Although I still think I am not tough enough,but I'll try to do my best.That's why he ever asked me to go to Japan to live with him.I refused him immediately.
Even love is very important part in my life.But I care t much more if I can be my own master.

That's what I've been trying to do since I came to New Zealand.

I have chosen to be myself,and I won't regret.